Mummy's Voice: Returning to SG from the Kelong

The Kelong Trip Sep 2009

the plan:
Grandpa and Grandma wants to go for 10 days and would like to bring you, Baby Asher along.
Mummy had felt bad for the last 2 times that they had asked to bring you along in Jan and Jun, but both times, Mummy kept you by my side..so this time round, I have to let you go.

In Jan, I was still breastfeeding you. So naturally since I can't go, you have to stay with me.
In Jun, Mummy wanted to bring you along for the gathering planned by Auntie Tricia and the dates clashed, so you didnt go with grandpa and grandma too...

But this time round, I have to go with you nevertheless, as I simply can't bear the thought of being separated from you (at this stage) for 10 solid days!!

So last minute, after renewing my passport, I bought the ferry ticket to join you and grandpa,grandma and Aunt Lijun & family... ...but instead of full 10 days, Mummy will return to SG, to Daddy after 5 days, together with Aunt Lijun and family... ...

18th Sep 09: the day we leave for Kelong...
Mummy felt bad leaving Daddy all alone here in SG. Furthermore he must have miss fishing and going to the kelong sooOoooOo much.
Daddy called while we were at the ferry terminal...mummy cried... ... so emotional huh..

5 days at the Kelong with you, baby Asher was tiring for mummy....

because... .... maybe because Daddy wasn't around.
it's lonely here for mummy without daddy...
it's not just physically but mentally tiring to have to do without daddy when I am with you...
which no words can describe the helplessness and loneliness I felt at those many moments...

but i am happy to see you enjoy the trip.

the excitement you showed when grandpa showed you the fireworks....
the fun you had at the beach...
the kampong experience which you had to go through without TV totally at all since the player was down
the pee & poo trials wihout wearing your diapers...
the refusal by you with your shrieks to go down to the sea when grandpa carry you down during low tide...
the first time you get to see LIVE roosters, hens and chicks...you run after them
the total darkness you experience during night time...
..... ..... .....

the last 2 days before mummy leave you, i kept telling you that mummy will be going back first and you will be here without mummy, just grandpa and grandma andyou must be a good boy,ok? Your reply was always "OK"... ... it pleased me kind of, though I didnt know if you really understood...

soon 5 days were over....it is time for mummy to leave you and go back to daddy, go back to SG

22nd Sep 09 Tue：The day I was to leave you Asher & return to daddy in SG

Over lunch, I told your grandma:
“真惨。 来时，想老公， 回时， 想儿子。”

it was a contradicting thought.
on one hand, i was worried you will be crying when you see me leave without you...i dont want you to be sad.
on the other hand, of course I would hope that you will miss me...

But rationally, I had to let my brain rule my heart.
you not missing me, will be better for you.

when I was leaving the Kelong, as I carried you in my arms, repeatedly telling you that i am just going return to daddy a few days earlier than you and you will be here with Grandpa and Grandma for a few days more etc and you promise to be good etc...Ok? And just like before your answer was "OK". and as I carried you, you laid your head right next to my neck, on top of my shoulder.....and you even "patted" my back....as if telling me "mummy, it is ok. I will be fine, don't cry and dont worry about me..." Am i too imaginative??

Well, i got into the car together with Aunt Lijun & family...while you wave goodbye to me, tears rolled down my cheeks uncontrollably again...

they were a family in the car, but I was alone.
it felt bad. really bad. the kind of empty loneliness.

i tried not to think about you...but think about seeing daddy recieving me at the terminal....
in just 2 hours' time....mummy will see daddy! he wont be alone anymore.
and i tried to be rational about you being away from me for the next few days...
thinking of getting more things done in your absence baby asher...
planning the errands to run and the stuffs to complete before you return...

5, 6 days....ain't short....though not long too...

and now as I am writing this blog...it is 4.51pm 27th Sep.
tommorrow night I will be seeing you le!!!! ;D

and you know what, mummy is sooOoooo looking forward to it!!

my few days as a kampong boy at the kelong

Few days at the kelong as a kampong boy.
initially mummy brought along my various dvds....
first night i was holding on to the disc, eagerly waiting for it to play...
then the adults say the player is down...
so no Baby Bright, no Hi-5, no LULI....
i was disappointed i think....
but it's ok.

I still survived my days as a kampong boy with NO TV, NO AIRCON for 10 solid days...
Pictures as below tells you almost all...
but only for first 5 days, cos mummy went back after that mah...
leaving just me, Gong Gong and Po Po...

in the ferry heading for Tanjung Pinang

trying to get gong gong to play with me

self entertaining

just cant keep still

arrived at the terminal

waiting for the land transfer to kelong

just a normal SUV sort of car

while travelling in the car

sleeping in mummy's arms
still in the vehicle
while the rest go supermarket

Next morning

going for breakfast

Gong Gong showing me some water spurting stuff

which i was amused by it

along the kelong

boys just cant stand still...

sharing mummy's ice milo

and green tea...

eating fried mee

laying on the table...

waving to the hen...

the starfuits become my toys...
i take them from the basket
and put into the small pail
counting and counting 1, 2, 3, 4
I keep repeating...they are always 4.

running after the kite...
I want to fly the kite...

water play time

brush brush brush

enjoying this packet of tibit gong gong gave

then it started to rain....
mummy let me play under the roof as it was just slight drizzle

See I am so curious about the rain drops

I like to put on this pail like a hat
mummy has no idea why

learning to poo in the potty

still trying to get the POO out..

wow...dark dark

Gong Gong showed me the fireworks...

i was so excited by it

bright in the dark dark sky

something like that
which i will not get to see or play with in SG

Oh oh...i pee-d...

standing still after i pee-d...

my first attempt in the sea in my float

playing on my own

clear clear water by the beach

holding tight to my float....don't even try to snatch huh

what's missing??
Daddy's shoes loh...
cos' he is not here

having my cool cool ribena after my beach play

we walked back to the kelong...

passing some memorable sights

like this little boy(older than me probably)
he had a cleft lip

and this is his home...

this is right outside his home,

where they just cook in a pot over a charcoal stove
with heaps of wood lying around

this is his home, an inside view
about the size of maybe our room

just a mattress, 2 shelves

a portable radio,
FOUR EMPTY WALLS.

the surroundings
this looks like a toilet
but we never venture in

arrived back at our kelong

its pee pee time...

then Po Po feed me Macaroni
she cooked
but i was a handful....i kept wanting to join gong gong who went swimming in the sea....

enjoying a cool ice blended strawberry drink...

Look! they are real starfish!
right before my eyes!

nightfall...

looking at Baby Trevor

it's another day again!

enjoying a roll all over

DA!

finally 1 shot with mummy....
no choice, she is always the photographer mah

enjoying some cool yogurt on a hot afternoon

i like yogurt, just like mummy does

another play time before i take a bath in it

NEMO!!!
that's Papa Nemo, Mama Nemo and Baby Nemo!!

cool right my pose...
but

OopS! Mummy!!!!

my shorts is dropping!!!

happily hugging together
that's my cousin tiffany. She is about 8 months older than me.

we tried a kiss

see....the girl will close eyes...
but the boy open eyes leh...

just an hour left before mummy leave...
heavy rain...
i was napping away...while mummy closely look at me...
holding my little hand...

hoping i will wake up before she has to go...
she doesnt want me to wake up without saying goodbye

Luckily, I did wake up in time.

I wave goodbye to mummy as she sat in the car.

No tears from me...but Mummy did.