Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Mummy's voice: as i look at my baby asher...

As i look at u, Baby Asher...

it seemed yesterday when i realised i had you in me...
now you are nearing 5 months old in barely a week's time...

at times, i just cant believe that you were once in me, made my tummy grew so BIG...measuring like 41 inches just right before your birth...

it's like everything was a dream...

the pregnancy, the growing tummy as the days went by, learning what to expect of a pregnancy and how to deal with what and what to prepare for your arrival ....
then the delivery of you, whether to have you on Valentine's Day or not, whether to induce you or not since you still didnt want to come out upon due date...and finally entering the delivery room after laying in the labour room for SOoOOo long, overcoming my fear of the "ugly and painful child-delivering process" most mothers depicts...and enduring for a no epidural delivery...waiting for daddy to come back to witness your arrival... and everything else...

the initial challenging month of being a new mummy without engaging a confinement lady, trying to be able to learn how to take care of you on my own... learning to cope with your cries and breastfeeding you, your pee and poos and everything else at home...making sure Golden and Silver will love you too...

everything was just like a dream...many episodes of a dream...
sometimes time passes so so so fast that I think it's scarily FAST... ...
so much things today becomes memories of yesterday and the days before and so on...

and as you turn 5 months old very soon...
i am beginning to feel you seem to need less of me... ...
the book is right... ...

really contradicting at times and tough to strike a balance... ...
well, i will persevere!

lots of love for you baby Asher, Golden, Silver & Daddy!!
From Mummy Lindy

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