The first time mummy scolded me so "badly", so "fiercely" ...I was naughty

8th July 2010 -
I messed up the Ice Cream Cake Mummy bought for Daddy...mummy was so upset

She was shocked when I opened the box on my own and actually messed up the cake within that few mins that she had left the cake box on the floor, while tidying some space in the fridge to make way for the cake box to go in... It was supposed to be a belated birthday cake for Daddy...

Wai Po only came over on 7th July(Daddy's actual BD) late night...so Mummy couldnt go out to get the cake for Daddy as she had to look after 2 of us...plus she wasn't quite in the mood too as Daddy hadn't initiate talk with Mummy since their quarrel couple days back...
Wai Po was SOOOOOOO stunned and in silence when she saw how Mummy scolded me... first time ever....she even chased me out into the outdoor dining area and aske dme to stand there and cry... :( Poor Asher me.... I sobbed and sobbed... (while Mummy's heart BROKE)

20th July 2010 - I refused to eat. I was told to face the wall. I sobbed and sobbed...

Mummy say MIAN BI SI GUO... ...

SURPRISE! Daddy came to "pick" me up after my school yesterday!!

Daddy was in the area and he came to give me a surprise pick up!!
:)

Though I didnt showed much expression about it...
(Daddy says I didnt looked the least surprised..)
(Mummy says I just didnt understand yet, maybe?)
Actually Daddy I am really happy!!

Thank you!
Love you!

i am 2yrs 5months old! & Many changes...

We went maid-less for 2 weeks. Mummy sent the crazy maid back to the agency on 28th June and also tendered her resignation at Tan Chong the immediate next day.

During the time when we were maid-less, Daddy & Mummy had bad fight just 2 days before Daddy's birthday and also after that... Mummy must have been stressed out for that maid less 2 weeks plus daddy's fiery temper and not giving face/respect by throwing tantrum in front of waipo...this is what hurt mummy the most. Why can't Daddy just behave better and show some respect for Mummy's mummy??

It was tough having to look after us and still find time to go out to look for a maid while Wai Po helped to look after us, once or twice, all of us went together... Luckily Mummy had Auntie Joanne Loh who helped us to shortlist suitable maids when she is on her maid search.
Through her, we engaged our new maid Auntie Elizabeth who is now 1 week old with us and been great so far! Far Far much better than Auntie Cora.

Now Mummy finally understood why some people can leave their children in the hands of their helper in peace. So from 28th June to 10th July, Mummy took care of us on her own with Wai Po staying over to help out on some days...and the first 2 weeks when Auntie Elizabeth came.

So far Auntie Elizabeth has been good. Not like the crazy Auntie Cora who always claim anyone, everyone is "gossiping" about her. Not only is she a slow worker, she apparently is just lazy too. Does not shoe sincere respect, always talk back to Mummy and instead of following simple instructions, she try to tell mummy what should be done and what shouldnt be done... Anyway crazy maid time is finally over. Now let's hope Auntie Elizabeth will be this good all the way...

Some of my recent pictures...

enjoying a cool ice pack after my outdoor time

outdoor venture

Mummy finally get to see how I behaved during haircut.

this is my 3rd haircut and finally it's mummy who brought me!!

The first 2 times both was PoPo who brought me to cut when she brought me out on weekends breakfast with Gong Gong and others...(Mummy pregnant with Didi...so wasn't with me...anyway..... .....let's dont talk about it here..it is a happy blog!)

Before haircut

After Haircut

Mummy was amazed at how well behaved I was during the haircut.

I was sat there nice and steady while the auntie cut for me......

Good job Asher! (Terrific Asher)

of recent, I like opening the fridge on my own

I try to reach for the things I want...
I took a stool and climbed...

I opened the fridge, took the bottle of cook
and my cup...

Mummy, COKE pls!

Yea!!!
no more Auntie Cora!!

Didi...Be careful ya...
Later backside pain pain

Yummy Ice milo!

Isnt this buggy great for 2 of us?!

I was naughty in the car while on the way home from school...

Mummy scolded me....
I wanted to drive too while mummy was driving...

I wasn't happy with just the toy steering wheel...

I want the real thing!!!

(terrible Asher)

I want to drive!

I really just want to drive...

I am really serious about driving...

Still,

my mummy love me. :P

Happy Birthday to Daddy...Mummy is not a superwoman

Happy Birthday Daddy... ...
but mummy doubts you will ever read it anyway.

"I'm not your superwoman...I am only human..."

I try to be strong, stronger and stronger... ...
I try to be a good wife, good daughter-in-law, good daughter, good sister, good mummy... ...
but it seems like i have never really succeeded...but failed. failed terribly.

Both pregnancies and many things big small...i almost went through it just like a single mum...
i knew you didn't want it to be that way too.
I try to be understanding to all your tiredness, all your difficulties...
I try to be as independent as I can be...
whatever unjust I had to go through with anyone, i always put you at top priority...having no wish to put you in a difficult position...
No matter how tough the road ahead may seem, being married, I always thought a hubby will always be the pillar of support mentally, emotionally...

There are times I am so lonely, so tired...so mentally and emotionally drained.
BUT i am always alone.
I am just a woman afterall...
There are times I need a shoulder to cry on, a big warm hug... ...
where are they? I am just being left ignored, left alone, left on my own.
There are times I made my messages clear that I am not your superwoman, but just a stronger, independent woman who still needs your love, care and concern and help.... ...but your reply was...the capable one gets more tasks...even the stronger, independent woman has been slowly killed by your silence and nonchalance over the years.

i guess you will never understand why it is a difficult time for me now...
you will never be able to love me how I thought I will be loved by...
My genuine smile and laughter are beginning to leave me...bit by bit...
I am terrified... ....
terrified of losing them forever.

Why have I put in so much effort but for nothing?
i am scared... ...to reach the day when i will just throw the white cloth and surrender...

but i am only human...i am not your superwoman.
I will one day admit defeat to your silence, your nonchalance.
I am just not that strong afterall...just a woman, not a superwoman.
just alone still.

Terrible Two or Terrific Two?

For sometime, Mummy was happy I wasn't quite the Terrible 2 that she has read or heard about... She was pleased that I showed concern and love for my little brother... She was pleased that I was co-operative most of the times... She was pleased that I have been showing that I have learnt well from the guidance and teachings..

BUT lately...

I started beating Little Ayden...
I will beat his head...
I refused to walk in to my school...
even if mummy were to try to carry me...I refused too...
I dont want to eat... ...
I misbehaved... ...

Mummy was thinking if it could all be due to the absence of my pacifier??
As I have now gone pacifier free!! And it actually wasn't too tough to kick it!

My recent pics...

cookie & scribbling time
munch munch!

finally mummy bgt me the crocs...

pai seh leh...
Kor Kor try shoe shoe for me...

I think I better do it myself..

Didi, Let's share the car!

hello...wei wei..

yummy yummy
my favourite noodles!

Big mouth!

:)

We can play together in harmony!

I think I am 80% Terrific Two and 20% Terrible Two... ...

Mummy says most of the time I am 95% Terrific Two and only occasional 5% Terrible Two!

;p

Mummy's Voice: Being a Mother of 2...

Being a mother of TWO kids by age 28 has always been one of my "objectives" in life.
However, I had wanted 1 boy, 1 girl and if I were to have number 3, any gender would just be fine. So now, with 2 boys... I guess if I were ever to try for number 3....the chances of another boy will be very high...so i better prepare another AXXXX name by then. :D
Still, it is a dream to have a girl....Leann Leann when can I have Leann?

Having read Auntie Tricia's blog on Approaching Mother's Day earlier really reminded me to blog about it too... ...

Eversince becoming a Mother, time has been greatly devoted to the children... ...lesser time for myself as an individual, lesser time for us as a couple. But having the children around is a different kind of fun and happiness too. (Of course, not forgetting the frustrations too...) ;p

Everything else has to take further steps backwards as priorities are all now on the children.
Everything else has to be planned around them...hoping to give them the best I can, working around other solutions to still be able to work and yet take care of them... ...

having TWO is really alot of difference to ONE.
Time is spent either on Asher or Ayden.
No time to even blog...and I only can save drafts with header to keep the memory there...and do it only when I can. The only "free" time I have is when both of them are asleep at the same time during their nap or middle of the night.

As we settle into this new place...as I build and establish a good routine and practice...as I train the new helper(WHO IS LIKE A LOST SOUL AT TIMES) ...hopefully things will work out well and smooth in no time.

I slept overnight without my diaper and NO accident!!!

On Friday 11th Jun night ...
Mummy decided to let me try sleeping without diapers again...this is the 2nd attempt.

1st attempt was earlier the month... it was not planned for but happened simply out of daddy's pure laziness as I was sleeping with him on the bed and he did not put on diapers for me...and I pee...in the middle of the night on the bed...

so 2nd attempt, mummy let me sleep on the mattress on the floor... ...
without high expectations...she checked a few times through the night till morning when i woke up...mummy was very very pleased to find NO ACCIDENT!!! Asher is a big boy le!!!

Nowadays I seldom wear diapers anymore, only when I go to bed at night and when i go to school. Eventhough I know how to say when I want to pee/poo and I will ask to go...but still Mummy thinks we need more practice as we are hardly outdoors..so she is worried I might not do it well with a different environment or person.


Last night (12th Saturday night...)
We had family dinner with Jodi, Jaeden, Tiffany and Trevor, my grandparents and so on...
After the dinner we went Ikea...I had great fun with my cousins...soOoooO much fun that i forgot I wasn't wearing diapers and I had a pee accident at Ikea... heheheh...see that is what happens when I am overly excited.

When we were having dinner, I still ask Gong Gong to bring me go pee... ...Still need more practice!